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24 February 2009 @ 01:17 am
Hook, Line and Sinker [Lelouch x Euphemia] [Lelouch x CC]  
Title: Hook, Line and Sinker
Pairing: Lelouch x Euphemia; Lelouch x CC
Fandom: Code Geass Lelouch of the Rebellion
Genre: Introspection, Tragedy
Rating: PG
Word Count: 557

A/N: I am very unhappy with Lelouch right now. >.< Spoilers for end of 1st season.



Hook, Line and Sinker

…There are validations for everything…

Clovis died because he was malicious and incompetent.

Shirley's father died of a misfortune, as an accidental pawn who found himself in the wrong place at the wrong time. So the old adage goes.

Euphemia died because it was appropriate. Lelouch reasons it out. It really was: a horror gone awry but deftly contained and turned in the end. For the better—for the greater good—Euphie, she would understand.

She wouldn't mind.

Everyone had to die one day.

(He only facilitates.)

--

CC examines him carefully, trying to deduce just what it was about him that (potentially) made him different. Made him "worthy"—as if she hasn't had enough disappointments. As if her lifetime didn't consist of crash and burn. But still, she found herself intrigued by him (however petty and absurd his motives are).

And like always, CC falls into her rote easily like a sneak. She knees down (the ground bites into her bony knees) and takes his head against her chest. She holds him gently (motherly, that was the eternal, initial key) and lulls him away—

tells him everything will be all right (only in not so many words)

tells him that she stands by him (forever is the implied condition)

tells him that he did no wrong (in killing that girl—sister, she amends)

And like now and like before, CC does not let herself get embroiled, entangled, ensnared in the fantasy and lie. She reassures him to reassure herself.

He seeks solace and she provides.

He wants redemption and she wants to laugh.

"There is no such thing as murder. Everything can be justified."

Lelouch looks up, startled that she even spoke. He looks at her with his brilliant, cruelly cold eyes—like he is waiting (begging) for the Geass to activate. Like she is some charm or symbol or even deity with all the answers, dying to be kindled.

"I'll always be with you," she says.

(Not before realizing that's what she always says: to Mao, to the sinless, sightless, countless others.)

--

That night, as he lies in bed trodden and torn into jagged ridges inside, he tries to conjure images of her face. Tries to retrogress to when they were children, just outside the Summer Villa, and happy. With his mother, with his sister (the real one), and her.

The one he killed.

"Sleep," he commands himself, wondering if the Geass will work again (just once) just for him.

It doesn't. The Geass is a living entity, and it mocks with perfect alacrity.

Because fate is already paved out in granite.

And that's when he thinks of Suzaku and his hapless, confusing love for her. And even wonders (though he knows it deep inside) why anyone would love Euphemia.

She was annoying in her kindness, was spoiled and foolish and naïve. She was always the favorite. With their older siblings, and he swears: even once with That Man. For reasons he just cannot (refuses) to comprehend, Euphie had a way of sinking her delicate fingers into hearts.

And his is just one in a million that got caught along the netted walls, a spindly needle cut from the rigid steel sheet. And he took the bait, hook, line and sinker.

And there was (is, he reminds himself) no regret.




 
 
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Y U no auto-translate?lye_tea on February 25th, 2009 11:30 am (UTC)
Glad you liked it. :)
(The episode depressed the hell out of me...)
kurakura_ichy69 on February 24th, 2009 11:12 pm (UTC)
awww. . . poor luulu
treeflamingo: CG: SuzaEuphie: fallentreeflamingo on February 25th, 2009 02:16 pm (UTC)
I shouldn't be surprised that you write Lelouche so well... but whoa. This is easily one of the better pieces of Geass fic I've read. (...not that I actually read much because I could never find much worth reading but still.)

I especially love the bullet-point type structure of this. Wholly appropriate for Lelouche; perfectly descriptive of how he deals with everything (it's OK I killed my sister and here is why *bam* *bam* *bam*)

Typo: "For reasons he just cannot (refuses) to comprehend." You wanna put that "to" inside the parentheses.
Y U no auto-translate?lye_tea on February 25th, 2009 10:09 pm (UTC)
Thank you, BB! :D

No matter what I try, I just can't feel bad for Lelouch. His mind is so selfish calculated and precise.

(Damn you typos! Why must you contantly haunt meeeeee.)
angelluvz on February 25th, 2009 02:17 pm (UTC)
wow, very nice ..
it actually hurt a little :'(