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29 December 2008 @ 10:51 pm
Hold [Kikyou, Inuyasha x Kikyou]  
Title: Hold
Pairing: Kikyou, Inuyasha x Kikyou
Fandom: Inuyasha
Genre: Angst, Introspection
Rating: PG
Word Count: 258

Hold

Maybe there was a time before when she loved him. But that had been a long time ago (too long that she couldn’t even remember anymore).

And now that she really was clay and smoke, she had no heart to give. And he had no place to receive and treasure it.

Kikyou could see past her barriers and illusions, saw straight into the abysmal soul of her reincarnation. Ka-go-me. The girl called herself that. But Kikyou knew there was no name and there was no girl. And that everything Inuyasha touched and longed for had been fake.

Like she was in life (and in death).

And Kikyou did release her hold, told him to go and leave and depart so at least one of them would stay intact. Inuyasha, like he struggled against her in life, refused. You never listen.

And you never say.

Because there had been no need (but there was now

but that didn’t matter because she lost herself—and him).

Still, Kikyou had no regrets. No room, no time for nostalgia for what-if-this-had-been? For a thousand things she wished she could have redone, remade. Gone. And so was she. And so was she at peace, at last.

Her pulse became steady and her breath even and low. The rushing stopped. She was reborn.

And the death-god frowned at her wearily, had had enough of her appearing and disappearing. And stated: this was the final time. And there would be no more portals for her left.

Kikyou nodded. It was time to move on.


 
 
 
Christy: oofuri -- hanai & momoerinhail on March 6th, 2011 02:44 pm (UTC)
Absolutely lovely! (: